Down and out?

I'm thinking of throwing in the towel here, folks. I mean, what's this supposed to be for anyway? I thought I might feel more connected, like my world, for all practical everyday purposes is bigger than a house, 2 dogs and a partner, and perhaps even become more connected. Alas, I feel increasingly like that one older woman I've seen several times at Pizza Shuttle. She sits there, smoking cigarettes (when will Milwaukee get with the program?) and speaking loudly to herself and anyone else who cares to listen. If you look her way, she catches your eye and you feel that she is speaking directly to you - that it would be really rude to turn away but yet you don't know her, you don't know what she's talking about, and, after all, you don't really care anyway.