Tuesday, February 28, 2006

looking-glass self

Somewhere along the way I lost my nerve.
I'd love to get my confidence back but the tricky thing is, who is making an accurate appraisal of the situation: the potentially megalomaniacal me that entered a doctoral program certain that the department's decision not to fund me was no indication of my potential; or the stuttering, nail-biting, second-guessing me that sees the departmental decision not to offer funding as the first in a long line of actions and decisions that I should take to indicate my status as a second-rate graduate student with limited potential?

1 comment:

jeremy said...

Stella, get your groove back. Do not let funding decisions structure your self-concept.